Kurt, from a very young age, has expressed an extreme interest in fashion and anything relating to theatre or music in general. Though it was no surprise to his father that Kurt was gay, Kurt had always been hesitant to tell him. Because even though his father was the closest and most important thing in the world to him, Kurt just wasn’t sure if Burt - the gruff, tough, car and sports loving man would accept him, especially considering his father was a politician.

Thankfully, Kurt was pleasantly surprised to find out his fears and worries weren’t true, and that his father could care less on whether he was gay, straight, pansexual, or asexual (though Kurt knows the latter would probably please his father).

Kurt hasn’t experienced the best of childhoods despite his rich background. His mother died young and he was constantly teased throughout elementary school for his slightly effeminate looks, taunted in middle school for his voice, and bullied in high school for everything. Private school or no, there was still hazing and much, much more. It is Lima, Ohio, after all.

But despite everything and everyone turned against him, he manages to stay strong. Letting their comments and insults roll off his back like water, Kurt only responds in jabs and stabs of witty replies and retorts. He’s sarcastic and sardonic by nature, making snarky comments here and there to everyone. He’s never had many friends, but those he does have he cherishes deeply and gives them loyalty like no other.

Sometimes he knows he can be a grade A bitch, especially when he’s angry or upset or hurt, and says things in the heat of moment that he may or may not mean that he may or may not regret later on (depends on who the person is), but he takes responsibility for his actions and his words as best as he can.

And while he acts like he doesn’t care what they think of him, he does on a certain level. The confident, inpenetrable mask he slips on every day before school is just what it is: a mask. And it has cracks in it. Beneath, there’s a not so confident, not so secure boy who can’t help but hear what they have to say about him. And it doesn’t help his self esteem very much at all.

Yet he wants - and strives - to prove them wrong, focusing on his schoolwork and his grades and education, ignoring what’s not important. Them. He knows that with his level of talent, his love for music and his voice, he’ll get out of Lima, get out of Ohio and away from all of them and to someplace bigger, better. Someplace that will not only accept him, but want and praise him.

It’s not just fame and fortune and proving bullies wrong that Kurt wants though. He wants not just people to like him, he wants someone to love him. And really, being a gay kid in Ohio, love isn’t easy to come by. Especially with his woeful line of crushes on some of the straightest guys known to man. 

Kurt has, like many others living in the Eastern part of town, an intense, public loathing for the Westerners. Or, as they’re nicknamed, “The Bad-Asses”. Though the hate from each side is much like West Side Story or The Outsiders, Kurt has a legitimate reason for believing those people are the very demons of the devil. He, unfortunately, was caught by two Westerners a year ago, and instead of the simple threats and mocking he expected to hear, he got so much more. Needless to say, in the end he was left alone, curled up and hurting and attempting to nurse a black eye. 

Since then, Kurt could not even bear to hear the name “Westerner” without fear and rage boiling up inside of him, the former causing him to struggle to get over the horrible experience, but failing. It took months for him to move past it, to stop flinching every time someone moved or looked at him the wrong way, but eventually he did. He never quite got over it, though, and try as he might, he could never fully let go of the fear that had been instilled into him since that night, even though he covers it up nicely with a few sharp words and a harsh look. 

Now that he’s living in a mansion with four Westerners, however, two of whom were the ones who beat him up and one he’s sharing a room with, he’s struggling to deal and to stand up for himself, to prove himself to them. He can only hope there won’t be a repeat of last time.

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Questions pertaining to Kurt:

Anonymous wrote:

“okay! you should know that even though klaine is my otp in this roleplay [you should know that i miss them too its very heartbreaking] i also have a tiny spot for james and kurt so you don’t have to worry about me trying to be like KLAINE, NO KAMES. just one thing i am curious about and have been for awhile is i believe you said kurt broke up with blaine because of problems with himself or something like that so how is he just jumping into this thing with james? take your time on answering :)”
 Yes, Kurt did break up with Blaine because of personal problems. He’s not about to jump into a relationship with James though, for various reasons that center around one primarily. James is known for suppressing his emotions, for not liking anyone enough to actually have anything beyond a fling. Kurt knows that.
 
  He also saw what happened to Lindsay over tumblr last night, what James said, and believe me it’s still fresh in his mind. There’s also what happened in the kitchen, how James closed himself off after Kurt ended their little make-out session, how to James it couldn’t have meant anything more than just a game. Kurt knows all of this, which is why he’s confused and hesitant and doubtful and more than a little nervous.

 Because James can, and most likely will hurt him should anything between them ever occur. Kurt confided in Santana about this (partially) and Kurt knows not to push James, because look at him and Lindsay now. He also doubts James even cares about him foe anything more than a friend if even that. Kurt doesn’t want o be hurt again, but he’s also trying to overcome that fear because he knows in every relationship, you’re bound to get hurt at some point especially since they have the power to do it.

 Kurt likes James, yes, and should James actually show some sign of interest for something more towards him, Kurt won’t fight against it because James himself said that he doesn’t do relationships, so if they do end up in one, that has to count for something right?

 All in all, Kurt’s nit about to hop into a relationship with James, even if he does want to spend more time with him and admittedly, kiss him more, because at the moment James doesn’t like him that way and though they flirt they haven’t talked. So Kurt’s just waiting for the right moment really.

Anonymous wrote:
“so what happened with findin’ yourself or whatever you said that then jumped into a thing with james makes no sense im confused”
Kurt was never finding himself, ever. He already knows full well who he is. He broke up with Blaine because at that time, it was too much for him to handle since it was a serious relationship, and he couldn’t really get a grip on it since it was his first and he still had so many insecurity problems.

  Now, I really have no way of blatantly showing Kurt changing and getting rid of those problems, but he has been. It’s been gradual, but there has been development on his character regarding his insecurities. A major factor in him being able to begin to truly cast them away was when him and Blaine reconciled. Their conversation put Kurt’s fears to rest, and even now he’s been showing subtle signs of development. Such as yesterday, when the anon messaging him saying he was a friend stealer, and he immediately shot that anon down because he knew it wasn’t true, when before he felt that maybe it was. There was also when James called him cute, and instead of denying it, Kurt actually played along with it and continued it, when he could have easily ignored or ended it. 

  Even though Kurt wasn’t ready for a relationship two weeks ago, he still likes James. You like who you like, after all. It doesn’t necessarily mean it will be reciprocated or that a relationship will come out of it. Kurt’s hoping for it, even though he knows it’ll probably be one-sided, and not because it’s him, but because it’s James and after what happened to Lindsay with James Kurt knows feelings and emotions don’t come easy to James. 

   The thing is, as much as James and Kurt flirt and hook up, they aren’t dating. And while Kurt is hoping that maybe James could like him back, he’s a bit glad that there hasn’t been a need for a relationship, and they could just stay friends because two weeks ago, one week ago, Kurt wasn’t ready for one. He’s on his way, yes, and sometimes he does wonder what it would be like to be in a relationship with James, and like he told James in one of their private messages, he accepts that there’s a possibility of James hurting him.

 For now, though, Kurt and James are just friends (even though that line is kind of blurred what with them making out and flirting all the time) and Kurt’s happy with that, because he actually like James, a lot, as not just someone he has romantic feelings for but someone he enjoys being friends with. He does kind of want to be in a relationship with James, but he knows better than to rush into things because he still needs to be a little more comfortable in his own skin and a little more confidant about things, and of course there’s no telling for him on whether or not James even likes him as something more than a friend, and even if he does James has his own problems to deal with first, as well.